Thoughts

When I think of someone who has special needs or someone who dies when their young. I think that god has made them in that way for a reason. I say these people are this way because of god, because everyone has to blame something or someone. Many say its the parents fault but I think otherwise, everyone has problem so we all have to deal with them. I believe, i go with the idea that god has made them in this way because later on in life something more tragic would happen to them or others if they were 'normal' or still alive. I try to believe their in this state because i don't wish that anyone should die young or have the difficulties of being special needs. For me I don't believe in god I just wish there was one so anyone and everyone can just hold onto them and never let go.

Sometimes I wish that special need kids/adults and us were switched. What is they call us special needs, what if they were trying to help us. I have several of these thoughts as my big brother is special needs, despite he can't talk we connect and understand each other. Sometimes I think that is my brother was like the rest of us, that he might be bad and do bad things to others, so I come up with this theory. The thing is even if he was like that I would still love him, but all I know is that I'm happy he's with us because if he wasn't their would be a hole in my heart and I wouldn't understand why.